Of animal totems

Lately, and I mean since before Hallowe'en, some animals have been trying to get my attention.  The spider was first, even though she appears last on this list.  A nice big red fat spider spun a web just off our patio, up three stories, floating there.  Then over to the left another nice fat spider was in the palm tree.  I was glad to see them as the mosquitos have been horrific this year by the river.  Then I was noticing them, one after another, when I was walking my dogs.  Not so unusual I guess, it is fall after all and that's when spiders come out to play.  But much like the hairpins, these spiders were all but dancing a little jig to get my attention.

Real size on left, zoom on right

This is the one that was hanging off our patio.  It was so big, and so cool, we had a flashlight out there to shine on her at night.

The other animals that have been really jumping up and down at me, squawking, hooting - Jeeze Gladys, LOOKA ME! have been a solitary crow (did you know that a flock of crows is called a murder?  A murder of crows.  SO GREAT.)  No pic of actual crows trying to get my attention, but you can have this:

Because that's funny right there.

Also the pelican.  So many pelicans.  Now, even here at the left coast pelican sightings are sort of rare.  Not like seagulls and pigeons.  But I've been seeing them - pairs of them in the bay, fishing.

These animals have made such an effort for me to notice them (along with hummingbirds, seagulls, a hawk...) I decided to look up what the message is that they want to get to me.  And in light of everything going on in my psyche, all the stuff I'm realizing one right after the other, I thought these were so amazing:  (green is from web, pink is my thoughts)

There is a great transformation happening within you right now. Trust that your life history has prepared you for this momentous change.

-Crow

If Crow has flown across your path;

It is a sign of change. All that you have been working for and toward is now coming to fruition. Alternatively Crow is giving you clear messages and guidance as to what your next steps are. Pay attention to your thoughts, and to the omens around you. The messages are clearer now than they have ever been.

Crow as a messenger could also be letting you know that perhaps you are spreading yourself a little bit thin. It’s time to step back – re assess where you are at and take stock of your own dreams and aspirations. Being clear about our own desires is key in manifesting our intentions.

A sign of change.  The messages are clearer now than ever.  Guidance to your next steps.  Take stock of your OWN dreams and be clear in your desires as that is key in manifesting intentions.

I've been talking about change coming.  Once I started listening, once i created that vision board and really went inward, I started hearing.  I started that vision board to begin manifesting what I want.  It's more important than I ever thought. 

What you see and judge as shortcomings in others is also reflected within you. Realize that true acceptance comes from the heart and that there is no need for judgement in any shape or form. Allow forgiveness to flow through you.

-Pelican

If Pelican comes to you…

If Pelican has come for a visit the most likely reason is that he hinting that perhaps you need to take some time for yourself and go inward. Something in your life is slightly off kilter and needs to be balanced. He also teaches us to take it easy at times even in the most hectic of lives. Pelican loves to float through life and float through his emotions savoring each special moment. Have you taken the time to be in the moment?

Allow forgivness to flow through you. Forgive yourself, and others.  Something in my life is off kilter and I need to go more inward to get through it.  Take time to be in the moment.

Forgiving me includes forgiving all of those broken people from my past.  Which means I forgive myself for making mistakes, and I forgive all the slander, gossip and backstabbing that ruined me and almost killed my soul <--(working on that forgiving thing).  I need to spend some time meditating on those times, pull the memories out of the muck, clean them, expose them to sunlight.  And then forgive and let go.

Consider the future you are weaving. Does it include your biggest dreams?

-Spider

If Spider has woven its way into your life:

She is bringing your attention to your creativity. Is it at a peak right now? Are you ignoring your ideas and dreams? Have you taken the time to find the balance between your past and your future? All these are subtle messages that you need to focus on. Primarily though spider is giving you the message that you weave your own web in life. The reality you see before you was created by yourself. If it does not suit you then it is time to make changes.

Creativity.  it's really been missing from my life.  balancing my past and future is what is happening now with my former lives showing up, and me needing to resolve any issues before they muck up my future.  I can change what I have woven.

OH creativity, how I have missed it!  I threw all caution to the wind and spent $165 so that I can go and get my hands dirty, make a mosaic table - I'm going to learn how to use tile nippers and grout.  I'm going to make a mess and be able to create something beautiful!  It's time for me to make the changes I need to make, in order to have the life I want going forward.

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I am writing so much the last 3 days I don't have time to publish it all every day.  This has never happened.  Even when I did my Sonny Liston thing or my Lizzy Borden thing, I wrote it all at once and threw it up (almost literally) right away.  I have three drafts in my folder on this blog because now that I'm paying attention I am getting info very very fast.

If you are feeling like you are getting a sign from your higher power/the universe, you probably are.  Please take some time to internalize what the message means to you, bobby pins or dimes or 11:11 on the clock.  Someone is trying to get your attention.  Maybe it's to say 'hi' - or maybe as in my case right now, it's almost an ass kicking to get you to turn on the light in your brain and REALLY THINK.