Happy 2019!

*sigh* Another year, another floundering blog on the interwebs.  I'm just going to pretend I haven't abandoned this blog.  If I can believe it, you can too.  Just try!

We moved back to Maryland (Lexington Park, land of absolutely nothing) in March of 2018.  Looks like we will be moving back to San Diego in March of this year.  And let me tell you one thing.  One real, true thing.

I AM DONE MOVING

I mean it.  NO, srsly this time, I mean it.  I mean it so much that we are IN FACT buying a house in San Diego.  Planted, that's what I want to be.  Since Jeff and I have been together we will have moved 6 TIMES.  That's not taking into account the 30-plus times I moved in my 20's and 30's.

I AM DONE MOVING

There.  I said it again, I mean it.  

But there is a twist to this!  And this twist is we are buying not a brick and mortar home, but instead a mobile home in a retirement community there in San Diego.  A double-wide.  A DW in SD.  Is there still a stigma about people living in a mobile home park?  Am I now White Trash?  Discuss.

It will be a newer one, with a nice deck and a tiny yard.  Because I am Positive Energy-ing that into reality.  Also, we will be spending approx. $185,000 on a 3-bedroom 2-bathroom home, rather than the $550,000 it costs in San Diego to get a condo.

More info on that when I have more info.  Still need the work offer letter for Jeff from new company before I can pull the trigger on any moving plans.  Anyone remember 2014 (I think?)  Second verse, same as the first.

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My foot is slowly but Shirley healing.  It only hurts when I first get up in the morning, or if I have been sitting on the floor.  So that's good news.  I'm not feeling so shaky on my feet these days.  I did of course just break my pinky toe, so don't be thinking I've become graceful at all.  The toe is on the other foot, thank ya Jeebus.

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Living here has been better this time around.  The first time we were here was when I started this blog I think (it was called Devious Integrity in that era). I was so sad and depressed and lonely!  The nothingness of this small town was such a downer.  This time, it's taken me almost a year to start feeling depressed and stir crazy, a new record for me!  I'm fine really, but the boredom really takes a toll.  I go up to Annapolis (Kent Island really) to visit my sister fairly often, that breaks up the monotony a bit.  It's a 2 hour drive, so some planning and mostly overnights have to happen to make the trip.

I tried volunteering at a cat shelter but that turned into a shit show fairly quickly.  The cats were mostly feral and were hissy, they refused to be petted or cuddled (what I imagined doing).  One cat would leap onto your back if you bent over and dig his claws in.  That made cleaning litter boxes (what I really was doing) quite the challenge.  I cannot bend over like that for much time anyway, it hurts my sciatica.  And cleaning cat boxes is a sweaty, smelly, dusty job.  I was perhaps a bit naïve when I began that project, but I certainly didn't expect long hours of cat pee and poop and getting scratched and bit.  So I quit that.

I've kept my Ebay side hustle going.  On my trips up to Annapolis I make stops at the Goodwill or Salvation Army there and buy stock.  It's going well, but as it's just after Christmas business is a bit slower than I would like right now.  

But here we are, mid-ish January, and I'm feeling very down and like life is worthless.  I'm certain the weather has a lot to do with it, but the fact that there is literally NOTHING to do down here but go out to eat or drink really does take a toll.  Jeff is leaving today for two weeks in South Korea, so I may be a drooling blithering idiot by the time he gets back.  I'm thinking this weekend is a good idea for a trip to my sister's.  Yeah, that's the ticket.

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I wont be discussing narcs and my childhood much anymore, I don't think.  I've said as much as I can think of on the subject, and I'm still fully estranged from my step-mother, so there isn't much happening in that area anyway.

I've been spending some time on Baby Center - there is a forum there called Dealing With In Laws (DWIL) that is ALL about narcs and their affect on their children, especially those just having babies.  Because that's when the crazy really comes out to play.  I recommend the site, it's interesting and very interactive.  DWIL Nation <-- there's the linky.

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I think that's about all the news there is!  Now I'm off to read all ya'lls blogs and get caught up.  I noticed Jonsi has quit blogging - I'll miss her bright energy that's for sure.  Anyone else still up and around?