So I haven't been able to take my eyes off of the Weather Channel since the news broke about this hurricane. I KNOW I have a tendancy to stress out about disasters (you should've seen me during the wild fires in San Diego) but I am so angry right now.
All of my Maryland friends on FB are saying "oh, pshhh - it ain't nothin', it'll miss us, blah blah" and - I am so angry right now and I guess it fits into this blog because I feel triggered?
YOU'RE WRONG. You're worrying for nothing. What YOU think is completely baseless (even though I am watching SCIENTISTS) and this is a NON-issue.
CERTAINLY, the Weather Channel makes a HUGE! BIG! DEAL! out of everything so you will stay tuned for the next drama fueled report. I GET THAT. But the factual info they have is coming from the military and the National Hurricane Center and the path of this hurricane is pretty much STILL directly headed to my area.
I dunno. You guys parse it out OR DON'T it's my issue but I haven't slept in a couple days and this thing isn't even scheduled to hit for two more. It is barely breezy here and although cloudy, nary a drop of rain. But I know it's coming. I have issues, can you guess? I can't control this, which is beyond my scope of reasoning I CONTROL EVERYTHING WHY NOT THE WEATHER.
Even if the winds are ONLY 75 MPH - sweet fancy Moses, isn't that fast enough to do some damage? And I am on a penninsula - there is only one road out. Storm Surge 2012 might be enough to cover the road?
Yes, I have candles and batteries and flashlights and toilet paper, I have food but I need to do something so imma go get MORE FOOD but the point of this is
I hate being patted on the head. If you are prepared for the worst, it helps. I ALWAYS prepare for the worst, and most times I am pleasantly surprised. But why this tendancy for people to downplay fears and feelings? I mean, I'm not big on wah feeeelings but this - ugh.
I can't do it right now. Words are failing me. THANKS, WORDS. I'm not PANICKING like bok bok chicken little ahhhh! but I am taking it seriously, piling blankets and gathering candles and making ice.
But this "pshaw little baby, it ain't nuttin" - is that ONLY because these people have lived through this fear many times and come out the other end? I always respected those people who said "nah, I ain't movin'" (sorry, they really do talk like that down here I'm not characterizing) or is it being negated? <--is that a word? Am I being pushed aside, pushed to the back, minimized?
Or am I just a big triggery baby?
My husband texted me this morning that we may be out of power for a few days NO SHIT SHERLOCK what have I been telling you but since a co-worker AND A MAN told him that, suddenly it is real.
Ah shit. I'm going to go get more - something. Then coming home to make a big pot of spaghetti.
Sorry, I know a lot of you are in AA but I am buying a JUG of VODKA and tonic and limes because if I'm watching a HURRICANE from my living room (plate glass *shudder) window, I'm doing it with a little buzz.
PS: My car is full of gas, I have lots of water, we are ok until we aren't ok but who knows until Monday. BESIDES I AM BLOWING THIS ALL OUT OF PROPORTION don'tcha know.
ALSO PS: How do I make coffee if the power is out this is a very serious issue.